I’m Krystle and I’m a recovering Heroin addict.
My story isn’t unique. I’m a small town girl. Separated parents, did mediocre in school. Parents worked a lot and compensated ‘gifts’ as love. When I was 14 I had shoulder surgery and was prescribed Vicodin. That was nice!
The same year I started drinking and smoking weed. When I was 15 & 16 I had 2 more shoulder surgeries and the pain meds were rolling in. I messed with Adderall a bit but the opiates were my thing! I drank and did pills every day by the time I was 17. When I was 20 I found out I was pregnant! I quit drinking but could not quit doing pills. I ‘slowed down.’ After I had my daughter I didn’t go out drinking but my Vicodin and Percocets turned into morphine and Oxys.
2012 was a big year. I was introduced to Heroin…. I stayed snorting and smoking it for about 3 months. But then I went to the needle; the point of NO return. Within 2 months I lost my GOOD job. And 2 months after that I was arrested, and Released on Own Recognizance (ROR).
I put myself into detox on Halloween and then a rehab that I only stayed at for 10 days. I left with a stranger to go get high. I stayed at my ex-boyfriends house getting high as a kite for 2 weeks. I barely remember it. Hiding out from my family who loves me dearly and my daughter.
I was a train wreck. I begged my dad to let me move in with him, and to my surprise, he agreed! I got on the Suboxone program and did okay for about a month. I started using heroin again and my dad saw track marks and back to rehab I went! I completed the program and within 5 days out of rehab I was at the bar…everyday for about 6 weeks.
I thought it was okay because I wasn’t getting high. I was sentenced for my charges in May of 2013 (I have not drank since) I started getting high again shortly after trying to hide it. My PO found out and I was sent to jail for 48 hours and once again went back to rehab.
I completed the program and stayed in a halfway house for 3 months. I excelled! I wanted this! I got out, got a job, attended meetings but still wanted to use. I stuffed those feelings and that doesn’t work. Right time and right place occurred and I was high again after 6 months of sobriety. I was using for 3 months until probation caught up with me. March 7, 2014…back to jail I went. I lost it all … AGAIN. My family wouldn’t speak to me. My daughter went to live with her grandmother. I was a wreck.
While in jail I attended meetings and reflected a lot on my life and actions. I was released 6 months later.
I stayed with my boyfriend (who was 18 months clean at the time) and we moved in together. I built a solid foundation in a 12-step meeting, and worked hard. My daughter moved back in with me and October 2014 I found out I was pregnant. Scared. Excited. Nervous. Overflowing with emotion. I kept my pregnancy a secret for 6 months. How dare I bring another child into this world with my track record?! But July 2015 I gave birth to a beautiful healthy baby boy. I am still with my boyfriend he is now 4.5 years clean & sober, we are buying a house, we both work, and are doing amazing.
Tomorrow I will have 3 years clean!! It hasn’t always been easy…
But every second has been worth it!
PS In the past year I bought a house!!! I became a certified phlebotomist, and I am currently working in a Physical/ Occupational Therapy office. My children are thriving and active in sports. Life is sooo good !
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